Hi Donna,
My son Chris will be gone 2yrs Dec 11. The pain is horrible but somehow we endure because we have to...
I'm sorry you have the burden that brings us here.
Focus on your son's love that is something that can't be taken from us ever. When the pain seems unbearable remember that love...feel him with you. Remember how your boy would feel seeing his mom hurt like this and that might help when you need it. That may sound harsh but that one thought helps me alot because I know my Chris would be so saddened to know my now forever task of happiness has this pain attached forever for his Mama
lots of love to you