Hello. Sorry your going though all this. I can relate to what you are saying. My daughter was beat to death at 12 and a half months old. I too feel I am crazy and will always be. Laycee has been gone for almost two and a half years and inside I am just as broken as the day she was taken from me. I will never understand why this happened. And when people make you feel like they think you should be moving on, its that they dont understand there is no real moving on from this. I have lost friends because they feel I should get over this. I had a once very close friend tell me to pull my head out of my ass. I dont talk to her any more. No one knows the pain involved in losing a child to someone elses hands unless it happened to them. I hope things get easier for you. Your in my thoughts and prayers, April McCoy