Darien,
I remember talking to you here. And you are right , the pain never goes away. Ever. And with homicide, there is so much trauma that the real grieving process (whatever that is) is delayed for many years. It is hard to let go, and start "grieving" , or "healing" when you can't grasp what has happened because of the fog of trauma. And we are retraumatized over and over again with hearing after hearing, the the trial, which is the second hardest thing I ever had to face. Then comes appeals. And that is if you are "lucky" enough to have had the murderers caught and arrested.
When is Keara's angelversary? Joshua's is November 26. He was murdered the night after Thanksgiving in front of my middle son Jeremy.
Love and Peace to you,
Yvonne
Joshua's mom
Forever and a day.

Yvonne, Keara's angelversary is April 5. Those dates are so hard and for you there is both the Holiday and his angel day. How is your son Jeremy doing? How old is he? I am glad that you knew where you could come to vent. We are always here. Love ya. Darien

Hello. Sorry your going though all this. I can relate to what you are saying. My daughter was beat to death at 12 and a half months old. I too feel I am crazy and will always be. Laycee has been gone for almost two and a half years and inside I am just as broken as the day she was taken from me. I will never understand why this happened. And when people make you feel like they think you should be moving on, its that they dont understand there is no real moving on from this. I have lost friends because they feel I should get over this. I had a once very close friend tell me to pull my head out of my ass. I dont talk to her any more. No one knows the pain involved in losing a child to someone elses hands unless it happened to them. I hope things get easier for you. Your in my thoughts and prayers, April McCoy