Welcome Donna & Beth....We of course have chatted and have been out of town but hope to be back on tonight. Beth I am sorry for your loss (and for Michael as well of course) We are also from Erie, PA and lost our beautiful daughter Lisa which has left our lives empty and devastated. I am not sure if you are aware but there is a homicide group that meets monthly at the CVC if you are ever interested in going. We are sorry you both had to look for our site but glad you found it as no mother should be alone going through this and it is something only another mom can truly understand and feel the pain. Laura & AV
Do you ever feel mean? I do not want to hear about peoples cars not starting or their children's school clothes costing too much. I do not care that their boyfriend forgot their six months anniversary. I am self absorbed and I hate myself for it. That is not who I was and I now have no idea who I am. I was always the one who fixed things. Took control and made life work. Now I just want to scream, loud enough to create a disturbance.
I'm so sorry for your loss. You have found a great place to come too. I hope I get to chat with you one of these days, I'm always so tired when chat time comes around or I just totally forget.
My son Timmy was 15 y/o when he was shot execution style walking home from the store. My life has never been the same, I am losing weight, I do not sleep, I cannot concentrate, I really hate what my life has become, without my baby I feel empty and lost.
Please know you are not alone. Some days it feels that way, alot of people around us don't understand what we are going thru, it seems like the only ones who do are the mom's who have lost a child to murder!!!
Beth
That is not being mean that is normal for us. I work with people who complain about such stupid things I want to take my shoes off and tell them to take a walk in these then they will see that all the little crap doesn't matter. My Jim was my best friend too, my rock I am lost without him. I look in the mirror and wonder who is this person looking back at me I am not the person I was before My Jim was murdered.
Sending Hugs
Jimmy's Mom
