thanks Ladies,
I guess I'm just in that space now. I know it's what we hate most, imagining our child's last moments. I just seem to be having trouble not doing it right now.

As far as the polygraph, they allowed the first at sentencing saying they wanted a truthful account within 90 days. The defense wanted the original re-evaluated and this 2nd opinion has finally been done, over a year not 90 days and thats where we are now. But before it was done I was told it probably wouldn't change his sentence even though in court that horrible judge said it would if he didn't tell the truth...Hawaii

Thankyou for the kind words for my sis...she just moved here...and she went to the doctor here after Hawaii's doctors not finding it,she has stage 3 emphysema. I just hope it's the beginning of stage 3...there are only 4...and yes I'm very glad she is with me