Dear Ursula I am so sorry to hear of your double loss.We here know all too well the pain you are going through.It is so sad that sometimes I don't know how our hearts continue to beat,being broken in so many pieces.I'm glad you found this site and hope to see you on often,to just let us all know how you are doing and feeling.I know we have all gone through the same feelings as you have so yes we do understand.Love and God Bless