Hi Lois,
I am sorry you were having a bad day and that it seems as though everything will always be bittersweet for all us and there will never be the happiness we once knew. Our youngest has moved away to college and what should be a happy time instead has filled our hearts with fear knowing we lost Lisa when she spread her wings to fly out into this cold evil world. Know that you and Chris are always in our hearts. Luv to you...Laura & AV

Dear Lois
Let me start out by saying that I am truly sorry for any sad feelings you had regarding reponses to your post.I happen to like the old post that was here.The others will tell you this new one (well not so new) is harder for me to keep track of.I feel this new one gives cause for missing messages because depending on how many posts are going on your's can wind up towards the bottom and get overlooked.
My immediate concern is our angels angelversary's,birthdays and candles.I know the feeling of disappointment too well concerning lack of candles being lit or messages on these saddest of days for me and other mothers.
I sometimes spend hours on the computer making pictures (Kimis for the other angels sites)or lighting candles and sending condolences.There are close to 50 other angels I know from last memories site plus Nicky himself has 4 sites of his own.I don't go on MOM's Message board everyday cause my family complains that I need to spend some of my free time with them
Sometimes MOMS may need a break from the depression that sets in as you read yet another of our children was so brutally taken from us.
I know to you this may sound like excuses but as Laura said sometimes our heart can't hold anymore sadness and you need to step back and take a break.
This week was a bad week for many Bette,Melinda and some other MOMS I know who are going through their child's first anniversaries,or are just having a hard time coping.
I am sending all my love and some special HUGS to you today to let you know we are here for you and sometimes need a reminder that all we all need is someone to respond to our pain.I honestly though didn't see your post.
If you would like to make some other MOMS day maybe you could find the time to go on their sites and light a candle in their memory.my son's is
http://nicholas-pisano.last-memories.com/ Love and God Bless
Happy belated Birthday Ezra I know uncle Chris is looking out for you always and when you look to the sky know that he is shining his love down on each and every one of you ALWAYS

Dear Lois Thank you for lighting a candle for my son,it did make my day.As I told April last memories is a good site and free,I would love for you to add Chris to it.There is something calming about it as you decorate the site for holidays,birthdays anniversaries etc.It is a way to talk to my son and other mothers and honor their children.I hope you are feeling a little better,although we all know how difficult that is at times.Love and God Bless

all I can say is I love you all and I'm sorry for feeling sorry for myself with you ladies...I'm shaking. Life has been a bit rough..I had to take some time off. Too much time...I'm back now.
Thankyou Laura and Shirley and all of you that have reached out when you have
love to you

Lois,
I too, am guilty of not coming on here as often as I used to. I know how difficult days can be and I too have had several posts that were never responded to. It does hurt, and I apologize for not checking in here more often. Sometimes life gets in the way, but alot of the time it is simply too painful to know and see yet another mom that is suffering as much as I am. It's only been 15 months for me and it's still so very fresh. I have been for the most part, alone since a couple of weeks after my son's murder. No one bothers to call anymore or answer their phone when I call them. Times like these show who your real friends are and mine have all disappeared.
Please know that I do understand your feelings and the pain you are going through. I am so sorry for not checking in more often.

Hi Alisa...Please don't listen to me...I'm guilty too.
Reading your words reminds me....
I'm so sorry for your pain...my Chris has just been gone 19 months...and every moment I realise more and more what I've lost...he was truly my best friend...
I find myself very alone now...no one in my family except my daughter who can't go there often, talks about him to me...and no one else here knew him...that was my home in Hawaii...that was that life and now there is this life...and it is so different.
I still so want to share him with others.
So if you need to talk I'm here
Sending Love

Lois don't ever feel sorry about sharing your emotions with us moms no matter what they are or how you feel. That is what this board is all about and why we are here for each other. Just hang in there and know we are here for you some of more so on some days than others but your Chris will always be in our hearts. Luv ya...Laura & AV