I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, I wish we could turn back time also. To have our children back with us where they belong. Always know that we are all here for you, whenever you need to tell us how you feel. Your Angel is watching over you and he will make sure you get through this. You take care of yourself.
Bette, I definitely can relate to feeling the way you do. I know u said that you can't afford to go to the Dr. but I wish you would go anyway and there are antidepressants that have a generic that is not very expensive. I think if I weren't on meds I would have totally lost my mind a long time ago. I love you and am sorry you are feeling so badly.
Thank you mom's. I love you guys too. I would be a mess if I had not met any of you. You give me hope to carry on and that I'm not alone and have ppl to come to and talk to no matter what and you never judge me never tell me I'm crazy or do this or do that just lots of support and understanding. I know I do need an a/d med Darien, I still am thinking of asking the dr. to give me samples maybe to hold me over for a month or two. Just to get me thru this turmoil I'm in right now. I tried Lexepro once and didn't like it, gave me zoloft and made me funky, I did use celexa once and that seemed to work back then years ago, maybe I can try that again he had given me samples at that time and it really did help. I just am so tired and exhausted from my whole life. I am missing Timmy more and more, the pain gets worse not better. Maybe cause his anniversary is coming, maybe cause it's summer, I just don't know. Maybe cause I'm just falling apart that no matter what goes thru my mind I cry and fall apart anyway.
I am so sorry your feeling so bad. I do know exactly how you feel. So broken. I know the emptiness. And I also know the feeling of having no choice but to do what has to be done because of our other children. I dont feel like its getting any easier. But just know your a strong woman. It sure is hard to live after having your heart ripped out. Your in my prayers.
I hope everything is okay with you as can be spaz mom..This world is so cruel and evil and no one cares when any lives are so brutally taken especially the young innocent ones. Along with everything else the mother of a murdered child has to deal with we have to deal with the fact that no ones cares that our beautiful angel was murdered because the coward scum wanted in the hospital and now that is where is being pampered so they can protect the hospital for leaving him out on the streets. Cold blooded confessed coward killer and they are accomodating him and telling us we don't care where he waits for trial. The sign will be going up in the front yard with a dollar tally to show the taxpayers where there money is going to harbor a murderer...Jail $30,000 Hospital $175,000 Lisa's Life Priceless.....Luv ya...Laura & AV
Dear Bette I am so sorry you are continuing to feel so bad.When we lost our children,life stopped for us but the world and it's problems didn't.As you know my heartache aside from the loss of Nicky is my eldest.Now none of his siblings wants anything to do with him and I feel like a miserable mom that can't keep her family together.I too am an enabler but that is because we are wiser now to the ways of the world and can't bear the thought of losing another child.We were blindsided by the murders of our children,but this situation is staring us in the face.We are down a car and there is only one for all of us to use so I hardly ever get the car,but Nicky's car will be fixed soon and we WILL get together for lunch.I promise.hang in there and remember I am only a phone call away.Love ya girl
