Dear Lois Wow I'm sorry to hear that you are not yet divorced,that is awful.Please try not to feel guilty about Chris's father.Sounds like he was nothing more than a sperm donor.This is not your fault so stop beating yourself up!I can't tell by your post who you want to gather shells and leave them at Chris's memorial site.What is a 13 visit? I hope you are feeling some kind of peace these days,Life still goes on with all it's problems,but nothing is more tragic than the loss of our children,so I just say bring it on,I can handle it.Love and God Bless
Dear April
I know your situation is hard.As I said to Lois this is not your fault,stop beating yourself up.How old is the creep that took your baby away from you? His sentence doesn't seem to be too long why is that?I pray for some peace to enter your life.Memorializing my son Nicky is the only thing that helps,that and praying and this board.I have found much love and support from the last-memories site If you want to take a look at my son's the address is http://nicholas-pisano.last-memories.com.It is a wonderful site to put pictures up and light candles etc.It is free.Love and God Bless
