You know I can definitely feel your pain. I lost my son June 22, 2013 in front of my home in a drive by. It's the sort of pain that the best way I can describe it is IT HURTS YOUR VERY SOUL!! People do need to be educated how to speak to MOMS because it gets under my skin when they "i don't know what i would do if that were my son/daughter" That's like the last thing you wanna hear. It's like nothing ANYONE CAN SAY OR DO TO MAKE IT FEEL BETTER. IT'S LIKE A DIABETIC WITH A TERRIBLE WOULD THAT NEVER HEALS. I CRY EVERY morning I wake up Carl is the first person I think about in the morning and the last thing on my mind at night. It challenges your faith, it's like a portion of you is gone. The killers were not caught, that only deepens the wound. I'm forced to relive June 22,2013 every day, I watched my son's life leave him and it hurts it hurts it hurts so MOM i know your feelings i know your pain.