hi my name is joann my son name is hubert i have been were you are and to me it is as normal as it can be men just don't get it we carried our baby"s in our womb and it just so hard for us to go on as we did before,you will get over this a little but you will still have that broken heart evertime i get sad i think of the good things that my son did just today me and my younger son was at the store and a young man keep looking at him and then he came over and said somthing good about his brother i was a little sad and then i smile your son will always be with you i sorry or your daughter? you see with me it was my husband that push me away so i come here for help he would not talk about it or why so i just keep the pain to my self or lit it out here we r one heart that hurt's hugs mom i hope i help you some