A new mom who post on the guest book and with her permission I reposted so that other moms who don't always look at the guest book could offer Amanda words of encouragement and support.
I was referred to this site from a pamphlet that I received from the circuit attorney's office. Two weeks ago, my two year old son was beaten to death by his father. I have yet to figure out what happened or why. I can't seem to accept what has happened. Every minute of every day is spent thinking of my baby boy. I can't go out because every time I see another child, I think of my son and break down. I have an older daughter who helps keep me distracted for a few minutes, but then I start to think of them playing and I am back to thinking of him. This is the worst pain that I have ever felt. With every day that passes, it gets worse. It seems like everyone around me is getting better while I deteriorate more. I can't even accept the fact that I will never see him again. Am I losing my mind or is this normal?
Hi Amanda, First I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. Everything you are feeling is normal and unfortunately you will probably feel this way for awhile. My daughter was murdered 4 years and 9 months ago and I still can't say that I have accepted it even though I know it's real. This website is a place where you can come to get support from others who understand.
I am so very sorry for your loss. You are not loosing your mind everything you are feeling is normal. There are so many questions we ask ourselves over and over again but we will never have the answers. Just know you are not alone we are here for you.
Hi Amanda, I too am so sorry for your pain and the loss of your baby boy. My son Chris was 27 when he was shot 8 times by his pos father just 2 yrs ago, it's with me everyday...I'm so sorry your boy's father made the same kind of choice. I can only say that the love my son had for me is what holds mr through my day. And knowing how he would have been so hurt to see me suffer like this without him. Your boy so young would still want you to feel him with you...I hope you can
love and hugs
Amanda, my 22 year old son was murdered June 2009. I know the pain and agony that you are now living with. My heart goes out to you and lots of hugs. There are no words to say, but just know that there are alot of absolutely wonderful ladies here that know and understand...and even understand the things you can't say or know how to say. I will be keeping you in my prayers.