I am so very sorry for your loss. I too lost my daughter and as you I am Guardian of her two children. Monica's children also witnessed their mothers' murder and fathers suicide. It has been 6 years and these children still go to counseling and still have problems. This is a lifetime of ups and downs for us as it never will ever be over. We just learn to live with the pain. We consider ourselves lucky that the coward shot himself as we do not need to endure the H--- of a trial. Please know that you have come to the right place for guidence and comfort. Only the women here know the pain you are feeling and only the women here know how to listen with their hearts. May God be with you and your family and know we are here for you.