be allowed to give their impact statements on May 15th. I want to go, I don't know the rules of what we are allowed to say, I've wanted to read some of your statements if you wouldn't mine emailing me. I know I can't actually say what I really want to and any of you who know me already know how ugly that is. I've missed you all very much but I couldn't post anymore, I went to Church yesterday. This time not to just light a candle but I actually went to mass. I didn't blame God for what happened and I know God never leaves us. It was me that left him, I was angry and I couldn't forgive them for what they did. Now that they have been sentenced I feel somewhat better, I still want to look they in the eye and tell them how they have changed my life forever.