Just wanted to let you know that Barb...Nicky's mom has been very sick with the flu and if you could keep her in your thoughts and prayers it would greatly be appreciated. If you would like to light a candle on Nicky's page I am sure she would greatly appreciate that too. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers...
Love to all the moms...Laura & AV
Dear Caring MOMS
I want to thank all of you and our angels for your thoughts and prayers.How just like Laura and Aunt Vicky to post this.I miss everyone and was trying to still light candles for our angels because I know they hear us and I'm sorry if I missed a few but they are in my prayers as well as you every night.I would ask for continued prayer as I go for an MRI.While doing a chest Cat scan that only showed COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease) which with the smoking I knew I wouldn't get away with for long they found an adenoma on my adrenlin gland.According to my DR whether it is malignant or not it must be removed surgically depending on size because it affects the hormones which are some kind of constant thing.I personally think it is nothing to worry about but my family is really upset and they need prayer.So while my breathing is much better I believe the angels sent this flu thing so I would have to go to the hospital and these random tests would be done. I was told that it usually is found while they are looking for something else and most people don't even know they have it so I'm not in pain or anything.I do need to stop smoking and this will be difficult since I've tripled my smoking since Nicky died.You know not caring whether I died or not,but this is so selfish of me as I see my family, children,grandchildren and husband's faces still needing me around for them so much.So maybe this is a wake up call to the feelings I was having regarding his death.Nicky is happy and safe and it is the living that need me not him,Our Lord is taking care of him for me.It was never really about him needing me but me needing him.So I have my memories,my memory page and all you beautiful MOMS to help me in that area.I know I will cry till the day I die for my son,but I am going to make every effort possible to concentrate on those who need me the most now.Thanks for letting my feelings be heard,you can't always share these thoughts with everyone of this I know you all know.With much gratitude to all of you Barb/Nicky's MOM forever