To all who shared their thoughts with me, thank you..It's so true..No matter how much time goes by, this was Chris' 4th birthday in heaven, it's still devastating..I'm waiting for the year when I can celebrate the fact that I was so blessed the day he was born and that I did have 23 years with him, but for now I still hurt and can't stand going to his grave site when Chris should be here having dinner and cake...again to all, thank you so much and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all..Robin, Chris' Mom Always