Michelle you are going to feel guilty when you lose a child. It could be because you had an argument or you didn’t get to say good-by or you were not able to protect them. I have a long list of things I feel guilty about. But I was told by friend that is my guilt that I have placed on myself. My son loved me and I loved him that all that counts. As a mother we do the best we can. I don’t visit my son’s grave much because it is a reminder that this was the last place I left him and he was not coming home again. I will keep you in my prayers and God bless.