Courtney I am truly sorry for your loss. I feel like I am the only person in the world who is still devastated by the loss of their child. My son was killed on November 29th 2009, the day before his 32 birthday. I am disconnected to everyone and everything. I have two beautiful daughters but I am locked in my own world of constant grief over my son. I keep reliving that morning phone call when my nephew called and said my son was in the hospital he had been shoot. It was as if I was dreaming. I keep saying lord please don’t let him die please. But after hour of surgery and coding twice he was gone. My beautiful son was gone and nothing was ever going to be the same again. I know I need to learn to live without my child but I can’t. As a mom you’re suppose to protect your children. We as parent are not expected to outlive our children my mom is 92 years old. Homicide has a domino effect on a family and the family start to fall apart one by one. I don’t know what to do. I will keep you in my prayer.