I am so sorry for your loss. I know what it’s like and what you are going through. Nothing is going to take away your pain it is everlasting but I will keep you in my prayers. My son was murdered on November 29th 2009 the day before his 32 birthday. I often write letters to my son to help me manage my grief. I feel like I am the only person in the word who can’t stop grieving. He was my only son and I was not able to protect him. I so want to be able to see him, love him and hear those words love you mom. I been crying all day and I decided to go on line and look for someone to talk to about my loss but there is no 24 hour hotline for us so we grieve in silence most of the time. I wish you peace and happiness.