Thank you for your kind words of hope. We are at about the same stage of this so I know how hard this must be for you too. I hope you have lots of support as you go through the trial - once the legal stuff starts, it can get very hard. Do you know yet when the trial will begin?
I too grieve every day for the future I lost when Maddie was killed. So many times I have imagined sitting in a cafe somewhere with Maddie in her 30's laughing about her teenaged antics. So many times I have imagine helping her with her children. So I understand your feelings of loss about your son.
I wish for you only the best as you go through this. I wish for both us the capacity to learn to live with this loss.
All the best,