Patty, I think all of us can relate to what you are going through. My 33 yr. daughter, Brandy, was shot and killed by a 17 yr. old young man that intended to rob her on Dec.21, 2011. There are still days that I don't want to get up and I am raising her 11 yr. old daughter. If it wasn't for her and me trying to help her I would stay put lots of days. My best advice to you is to get counseling and to take each day one moment at a time. I know what you mean when you say you are lost without Danielle. My daughter used to call me at 1:30 or 2:00 a.m. just to talk and I still haven't gotten use to her not calling. You might want to start a journal and write down your feelings especially when those moments are really bad. My counselor told me I could write letters to my daughter if it would help, so you might want to consider doing that also. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope that the person that killed her was caught and put behind bars. Sending much love to you.
HI Darien...I agree how nice it would be it has been a long 4+ years since I met my sister moms and I do miss chatting with you all. Patty I am so sorry about your daughter Danielle...Our daughter Lisa was also stabbed to death (by a mental patient). The images are horrific that our mind projects and the pain our loved ones suffered. I am not sure how close you are to Philly but we have a couple moms that live in the area. Once again I sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Laura....Lisa's Mom
My phone number is 610-478-3002 I live in Reading Pa My daughter lived in Bensalem Pa and my grandson Tyler lives with his father in New Jersey. I had to go back to work today and it was horrible I take care of an elderly woman she is 98 so most of my day I feel so alone. So I am home in the evening. All I want to do is sleep. I do have a therapist. I am just so angry. Yhanks for listening. Patty
Patty, I will call you this evening. Going back to work is so hard. Our lives are hard after the murder of our children. Laura it was so good to see you on here. I miss you so much. Any chance of chatting sometime soon? Love ya.
We can try what is good for you? Sat @ 8:00? Let me know if that is too late and we can set something else up. Patty...We know the feeling...nothing matters....and if we sleep the pain stops at least for the moment. I remember for months and months when I laid down at night the pain was so horrible that I didn't care if I ever woke up again as when I would wake up the first thing that would pop into my head was: Lisa was murdered. I was by no means suicidal I have my family and our other 2 girls I have to be there for but you just want the pain to go away and this nightmare to end. Please know we are thinking of you and always here for you. Laura
Thank you so much for your kind words. This is just such a nightmare sleep is the only time I feel at peace....unfortunately I wake up and it is my first thought that some monster could have done this and then I don't know where to go from there except closing my eyes and praying it is all just a nightmare.
I am new to this experience as well. My son was murdered two days after your daughter. He was 28. I can definitely relate to your first post - those **** images of the last moments - I thought I was the only one who had those horrible thoughts. Although sleep was my only relief, it evaded me for the longest time. I still have problems sleeping, but not nearly as bad as it was initially. This is such a painful process - there is no aspect of my life that hasn't been impacted by this - my health, my work, my emotions, my thoughts, my family, my home, my friends/social life, my spiritual beliefs, etc. The days are finally getting easier - I hope the same goes for you. Dawn