Hi, I am sorry for what you have been feeling...sounds like everthing I was but you lasted longer until your meltdown because your son came first before you could begin to think of yourself. At the peak of my breakdown I quit my job...I was so spun my 2 week notice became 2 hrs my body hurt so bad. I feel better not working there but that was the 3rd time it got away from me and the worst. We deal with alot we would never wish on others and the ones that should know don't care...
I feel better but it's hard to get out the door w/o the job and I have to get out there...I've run out of cash and can't seem to open that door which is exactly what I know I must do...It's all part of honoring Chris but I am lacking the confidence I need.
Children and animals are very healing and are very unconditional in their love which is just what we need. It's a good place to get and give love
I call it LPL-little people love
I'm sorry you are hurting and wish you comfort

I actually was committed to a mental health place. I was there a week and it didnt help me much. However they did get me back on my meds and i started seeing my therapist every week. im down to every two weeks now. im so sorry for what you are going through. we all go a little crazy sometimes, most of us anyways i think. i think its normal. try to hang in there.