I'm sorry you are feeling so bad...it will be 3 yrs in Dec since my son Chris was murdered. I think it was Shirley or Barb that said the pain softens. I thought that a good description
loving thoughts sent to you
I am so very sorry for your loss there is no greater loss than that of a child and having your child murdered is even worse.
I don't think there is anything that makes it easier, my son was murdered 3 years 8 months ago and the pain is still in my heart. It does soften a bit and we learn to live with it, what does help is having others that understand, others that we don't have to hide our true feelings from, others that feel the same and don't think we should be over it. I feel like I just don't fit in anymore not even with my own family, I think that is because I feel that I have to hide the real me because I don't want anyone to know how much I hurt. People who haven't walked in our shoes don't understand the pain of having your child murdered, they don't understand why we aren't over IT. They don't understand how one word can make us cry or why we are still crying.
Hugs Jim's Mom