Christa
I too am so very sorry for your loss, I know what you mean about hiding your pain we put on our happy face just before going out the door or when anyone else is around and all the while we are dieing inside. No one understands like another mom who is walking the same road, we all here are walking that road. My son Jim was murdered three and a half years ago the pain has softened somewhat but he is the first thing on my mind every morning and the last thing every night. I cry for him most days and I miss him more and more every day. I too am glad you found us just so very sorry that you had to look for a site like this.
Hugs Jim's Mom