im so sorry things are not going good. im right there with ya let me tell ya its going on 3 years and i feel all ripped up and torn, I feel like Humpty Dumppty. nothing will put me back together again.

I know I wish for signs every day and don't seem to get them, I used to find dimes all the time but since the trial I haven't, no dreams either. I talk to him every night and tell him please let me know you're still here with me, let me feel your presence, I just wish I could hear him speak or laugh. The pain is just unbearable sometimes.