HOW, HOW, I DONT KNOW HOW IM GOING TO MAKE IT THRU THIS EASTER. HE LOVED TO MAKE EASTER EGGS WITH HIS SISTER EVEN THOUGH HE WAS A TEENAGER. OH GOD I MISS HIM WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? NO WAY IM GONNA SURVIVE THIS ITS JUST TO **** HARD. I LOVE ALL THE SUPPRORT HERE FROM ALL THE MOMS BUT I DONT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE, I DONE!!!!!!
I'm so sorry Cynthia, I know the pain so well. Holidays are never the same and never will be it's so hard to live thru some days I just don't know how I even get out of bed. It will be 4 years this July and I can't even believe it's been 4 years and I wonder all the time how did I get thru any of this?? How can I go on without my baby? I barely make it but I do for my other two boys who have been going thru he** my oldest is falling apart he is a mess and I don't know how I manage working full time, missing my son, my heart broken, and tyring to stay sane for my other sons and having the pain of my oldest son and seeing him sink deeper and deeper away because he cannot handle the pain. Try and stay strong and I'm sending lots of (((hugs))) to you.
Cynthia, I understand your pain and not feeling like you can or want to do this anymore. Losing our children to murder is by far the worst thing that could ever happen. I guess all of us go through this a day or even a minute at a time, and it is so hard. For me the fact that I have other children and grandchildren is what keeps me going even though they all live far away except for Keara's children. Just try to hang on and know that you have people that care about you and understand. Love ya, Darien
Hi Cynthia
I.m sorry this will be the 3rd Easter without my son Chris but for us we had a couple more dates thrown in.
My beautiful daughter's birthday was 4/20 and mine is today...we never did big celebrations as they got older, but we'd always get together...always.
It was our 3rd birthdays without Chris but what's more Aly's 28...Chris was 2 mos shy of his 28th when he was killed...she's older than her big brother now.
Cynthia
I am so sorry you are going through this, like Darien I have an older son and I have My Jimmy's daughter she is the one who really keeps me going. Hang in there and know we are all here for you.
Love and Hugs
Jim's Mom
I am so sorry. Easter wasnt all that great for me either, seeing all those babies in those little dresses. the holidays are the worst..I am so sorry for the pain you have in your soul..the hole in your heart...im sure your son celebrated easter with all our angels
