I find myself with the same thoughts alot the past week as well. More so than usual anyway.
I feel my Chris died with a broken heart realising what was to be...that he would die without us and knowing our hearts would be broken without him. Just writting that hurts so bad....I miss him so much.
I imagine that night, I can see Chris being shot in my mind, I see his saddness as his hateful father put 8 bullets into his beautiful body...and then comes the guilt...I should have been there with him.
I am so sorry this has happened to all the ladies here but you have a special place in my heart April. That Laycee was so defenseless so innocent so little is even more heartbreaking.
Time is strange now because everyday we feel that loss of our children taken so unfairly, in an instant and that will always feel like it has just happened for us alone with each other.
Sending Love