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Darien Russell, Keara\'s Mom
 IP: 4.88.118.118 Feb 27, 08 - 10:45 PM |
What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Ihate to think that this is what I've come too but my life us so empty andjust so **** hard. I have been through so much in such a short ime and I feel so tired, mentally physically and spirtitually and I feel out of options., I just think leaing is the only thing that is going yo work. My jou ids gone. Keara, is deadf murdered, He killer is in prison for lifr but it doesn't help' ehat does? anything? |
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Bobbie Humphreys
IP: 74.181.237.115 Feb 27th, 2008 - 11:16 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Iknow it is hard .Billy LEE HAS BEEN GONE 10 YEARS TODAY ,BUT SOMETIMES IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY.PLEASE DO NOT LET THE MURDERER WON. WE TAKE ONE STEP FORWARD AND TWO BACK .I THINK ALL OF US HAS TROUBLE SLEEPING. HANG IN THERE. DON'T LET THE KILLER TAKE ANYTHING MORE FROM YOU. BOBBIE BILLY LEE'S MOM |
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Frances (Ruben's mom)
IP: 71.102.174.217 Feb 28th, 2008 - 12:52 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Unfortunately when we lose a child no one understand the emptiness and loniness that we feel as mothers, We actually feel as though our hearts are breaking, But you can't let the killer of your child take every thing away from you. They take your child, your sanity, your heart don't let them take your life as well your child would not want you to feel so much pain. It is easier said then done I know, But instead of feeling pain, get angry get involved I am sorry I don't know how your child was taken, mine was shot by an illegal so I have made it my ambision inlife to fight against gun's in my area, and I have done everything possible to make sure that if the shooter can't be deported because he is serving life, then the accomplice is going to ICE court to be deported and his green card revoked. I feel a little bit of gratitude in this. So when ever you feel so low and depressed TAke a photo albums of your child and hold it close and remember all the memories and cry, cry, cry your self to sleep. It is OK, With love Frances |
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connie marchant
IP: 216.166.159.185 Feb 28th, 2008 - 3:14 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Darien, I think every mother on this site has thought about joining our children. We were left behind with our broken hearts that will never heal and we will never, never be the same. But I choose to see that justice is done for my sons murderer and choose to let God pick my time to be with him and Justin again. It is very hard somedays but I would rather dwell in the kingdom in Heaven with our children than eternal hell with the low life scums who chose to take our children's lives and ruin ours forever. I tell myself every day that the hurt never goes away, it just gets different and there isn't a day goes by that Justin is on my mind always and some days I cry my eyes out and miss him and other days I just miss him. I wish only bad things to happen to all our children's killers, believe me if every day I was told that one of the murderers died, I would say just a little bit more fresh air to breathe and a sunnier day for all of us. Thoughts & Prayers, Connie Marchant |
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MICHELLE BROWN
IP: 70.245.74.246 Feb 28th, 2008 - 3:52 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
OH SWEET DARIEN,MY HEART'S BREAK'S FOR YOU,LET ME SHARE WITH YOU,WHEN I LOSS TONY I SHUT THE WORLD OUT,YES I HAVE DOES FEELING'S WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP ALSO,BUT THAT'S LETTING THE DEVIL AND THE MURDER'S WIN,I KNOW IT'S HARD LORD I KNOW,EACH DAY OF MY LIFE SEEM'S LIKE A BATTLE,BUT I HAVE TO PUSH TO GO ON,YOU ARE A SWEET WOMAN,YOUR ANGEL WOULD WANT YOU TO FIGHT AND BE STRONG IN HER MEMORY,I WISH I COULD HUG EACH MOM WHO IS HURTING SO BAD RIGHT NOW,BUT KNOW YOU ARE IN MY HEART AS ALL MY MOM'S ARE,WE DIDN'T ASK TO HAVE THIS PAIN,NOW WE HAVE TO OVER THIS,CRY,SCREAM,DO WHAT EVER TO RELEASE THE ANGAR,I SEND YOU A HUGE HUG,AND ALL MY LOVE,IF YOU NEED TO TALK MY CELL IS 504-432-7579!HOLD ON FRIEND!!LOVE TONY'S MOM-MICHELLE! |
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Cindy Eller
IP: 204.181.51.85 Mar 1st, 2008 - 4:37 AM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Just like the rest of the mother's I have wanted to join my daughter. But that is what we will not do if we choose our time and not let God finish what he started. I truely believe that the murderes of our children may feel like they have gotton away with what they have done but the fires of **** are awaiting each and every one of them. We need to keep remembering that. And also what if your job now is to help another mother what if God's plan is for you to start a support group?? None of us know what our purpose is if all we have is pain but God has a purpose for all of us we just need to stay strong to fullfill it then we get to hold our children again and this time we NEVER have to let go. My prayers are with you. Love Cindy Monica's Mom |
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brenda
IP: 164.51.5.2 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 12:02 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
you go down on your knees and if you are in a place where you can not get down you just ask god to help you ,i have been asking him and thanking him for his help since july 28th 2006 at 2:50 a.m. the day was a friday.my precious son was gunned down in canton ohio while sitting in the garage talking with some friends,some thugs came down the path behind the house and shot my son three times i got the call on thursday night july 27th at 9:40 p.m. and i was in phenix city, alabama and i did not get to my son in time to say goodbye.but i prayed and asked god to give him time to get those things right that he needed and god did as i requested .the surgeon told my husband and i that j.d. was praying when he came out of surgery ,he said hehad never seen anyone talking fresh out of the operating room. so you just pray and pray i gaurantee you the peace and acceptance will come but you will never completely get over the loss of a child no matter what. |
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JOANN-HUBERT-MOM
IP: 66.97.50.40 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 5:45 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
DARIEN , I TO WENT THRU THINKING OF A WAY OUT WITH SUICIDE,MY SON WAS MURDERED JULY 27 2007 @9:40 PM ,THAT NITE MY LIFE FELL APART,TAKEING ME A LONG TIME TO STOP AN THINK,ABOUT MY LIFE WITH OUT MY SON. HUBERT IS NOT MY ONLY CHILD,I HAVE A DAUGHTER, AN TWO SONS, AN A HUSBAND,THAT NEED ME TOO LIVE, I PRAY TO GOD FOR GIDENESS, JUST SAY THE NAME JESUS,HE WILL SEE YOU THRU ,EACH DAY LOVE MY SIS MOM JOANN HUBERT MOM LOVE AN PRAYERS |
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Yvonne S
IP: 64.12.116.12 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 6:15 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
((((((((Darien)))))))))))) Stay here and live. Honor your child's life by first surviving, then learning how to live again. It is what I decided,,and I am sticking to it. His murderer will NOT get one more ounce of me! I love you, Yvonne (Josh Underwood's mom) http://joshua-david-underwood.memory-of.com/About.aspx |
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Bette
IP: 64.12.116.12 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 7:05 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
I could not say anything any better than the moms here already wrote. I know the pain, we all do, what you are feeling. I've thought it, but I know I want to see him again and to take my own life would not give me that. I have 2 other sons and they need me, and my sisters, what would that do to them I think all the time, the pain they just went thru with what happened to my son, and I would give them more pain if I did that to myself. Please try and stay strong, not just for your baby in heaven, but for yourself, and the rest of the family, friends who all love you. That's where I get strength from, the love I feel from others around me, from the moms here, my sons, my sisters, the rest of my family and friends, neighbors. And knowing in my heart Timmy would not want me to suffer the pain I'm going thru, I cry every single day, I think in replay in my head what happened to him and the pain it brings me to think that someone just walked up to him and shot him point bland to the back of his head, the fear he might have had, the pain he might have felt, every day I live this and I know you live this too, but we have to keep going because our babies would want that. I pray for all of the people who have to go thru such tragedy in their lives and I hope that God shows me this path that I am on now and leads me in the right direction to where I'm supposed to go. I pray every night that I will see my beautiful baby's face one more day and I know I will. Keep faith friend, be kind to yourself, don't let the monster take everything from you, then he does win. All will be lost and you don't really want that. I send you many hugs and prayers to you and God Bless you always. Bette Timmy's mom |
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remember me
IP: 75.142.202.31 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 7:36 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Sweetie, get yourself to a Doc ASAP and have yourself put on antidepressants. You don't have to tell that you are suididal, just say that you are depressed, that's what you are. The pills help, you won't have to take them forever, they don't change who you are or even change your feelings, they just rearrange your brain chemicals so you stop feeling sooooo bad. I did it. I was so depressed that I didn't get out of bed for six months, I had a plan, the whole bit. Go see you doc ASAP. Life is worth living!!!! |
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Jimmy's Mom Shirley
IP: 71.141.121.238 Apr 22nd, 2008 - 8:34 PM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
I think we have all had the same thoughts my son Jim was murdered four short months ago. For the first three weeks all I did was cry and think about was how much I wanted to be with him, then asking God to let me take his place I would do that in a heart beat. But I know this is not what he would want. I have to stay here and fight for justice for my Jimmy. Justice the only real justice would be if all these murdering B------- would drop dead and our children could be back with us. I agree that God has a plan for us all and suicide just isn’t in his plan. Stay Strong My thoughts are with you tonight. Jimmy’s Mom |
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Frances Jr's mom
IP: 66.214.69.63 Apr 25th, 2008 - 8:50 AM |
Re: What do you do when actually fell yourself contemplating suicide as a way out?.
Sometimes we feel as though that is the only way that we are going to see our children again is to join them, but then you have to believe that they themselves would not want us to leave this world in such a way that we risk our eternal souls to never see them again, it all depends on what you believe. I think that we have all thought of this at one time or another since or ordeal started. but you need to seek a doc and get some genuine help...Sweetie I am bi-polar and my depressions have been so severe that my doctore told me that I could actually die from this broken heart of mine and there are people out there that love me and need me, that sounds so careless and unrealistic but it is true think of the people that our in such pain because the loss of your love, and think of that pain doubled because now you are gone also...please don't do this to them or yourself...please call someone my number is 1-805-929-0964 hardly ever at home until about 09:00 at night but you are welcome to call me at anytime that you feel out of control...(I am pacific time) Frances |
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