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Kalani-Dakota's Mom
 IP: 64.61.220.184 Dec 21, 07 - 9:39 PM |
Christmas
Well, it's Christmas time again. Only this year Dakota isn't here to celebrate it with me. I know that most if not all of you mom's probably feel the same way as I do but I just want to curl up and go to sleep and not wake up again. It just hurts so much to be without my baby. I was wrapping a present for my roommates son and started crying because I should be wrapping gifts for my little boy and I can't because someone couldn't control himself. He was a helpless baby and didn't deserve what happened to him. No child deserves to die and especially by abuse. I blame myself everyday for not seeing what he was doing to Dakota. I no longer care if I live or die. I am going through life the best I can but I really don't want to be here. Since Dakota died there is nothing here for me anymore and I need to be with my son. I know that I cannot do harm to myself because I won't see Dakota again if I do. If someone was to shoot me dead or I was to die of an illness or something like that I would welcome it with open arms. I don't want to be on this earth without my baby. The man that did it, really screwed me and my son over and he's living in prison, has nothing to worry about. Has a roof over his head and three meals a day, a bed to sleep in, tv, radio and whatever else and he isn't at all remorseful over what he did. He told a mutual friend of ours the truth but he refuses to tell it to my P.O. When our friend asked him to tell my po the truth he said "F*** No, I'm not going to do that". He doesn't care how much he screwed up the lives of many different people out there. My family and the family on Dakota's dad's side. He doesn't care what he did. He probably wouldn't even care if he knew how much I want to be gone from this earth and be with my son again. I also know that I am not the only one who feels like this. The holidays are a very sad and emotional time for me and for everyone else that has lost a loved one. I am so thankful for this board being here. I know that I can come on here and write what I am feeling and everyone else will understand because they have been there too. It is very sad that this board has to exist but I am thankful that it does. |
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joann hubert mom
IP: 69.31.155.253 Dec 21st, 2007 - 10:02 PM |
Re: Christmas
kalani,dakota is in a better place you know that he is having a good time with all our angels thay are safe in god arms.pleae know we all will get thru this nite mare,you are not a lone we are here for oneanother. god has his time pick for us.you have to be strong for me .an all the outher moms.we can not do it by our salf.with all the moms we will win this fight.the devil will not win,an dakota is watching over you all the time. keep the love you have for him in your heart.it will never die.we will be hear all the time for one another.love -prayer sweet dreams-joann hubert mom sorry so long . |
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Michelle Dye (Brandon Fluet\\\\'s mom)
IP: 64.12.116.12 Dec 22nd, 2007 - 9:04 AM |
Re: Christmas
dear sweet kalani believe me when i say i am right where you are with your feelings of not wanting to go on here on this earth without our boys. feeling so much pain and yet the same amout of anger that our children's killers are still on this earth. i know we should all have feelings of peace especially this time of year, but instead i'm feeling anger and hate at the murderers who ended our children's lives. i can't help but wish they were all dead and in hell, where they all belong. both Dakota and my son Brandon are in a better place and happier than they've ever been. and yet somehow that doesn't help me. i want him back home with me!!! as selfish as that sounds..it's just the honest truth.. know that you are loved very much and that we are all here for you to hold your hand, listen, love and walk with you down this long, dark, lonely path of grief. all my love always michelle dye (Brandon Fluet's mom) |
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