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michelle brown
 IP: 70.142.25.69 Nov 29, 07 - 6:20 PM |
"WHO AM i'
HELLO MOM'S,WELL CHRISTMAS IS SOON TO BE HERE,REALLY I WISH IT PASS ME BY,PEOPLE SHOPPING,LAUGHING,BUT INSIDE OF ME IS A RIVER OF TEAR'S,WHERE I WORK PEOPLE FUSS ABOUT THIS AND THAT,STRESS,TIERD ,BILLS,BUT ME I AM A MOTHER WHO LOSS A CHILD TO MURDER,AND WHEN PEOPLE FIND OUT THEY LIKE NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY PROBLEM'S NO MORE,I AM SORRY,NOT LIKE ME,I AM SORRY I CAN'T BE WITH MY BABY,CHRISTMAS MUSIC IS DRIVING ME CRAZY AT WORK,WHO AM I,A MOTHER THAT WISHES I COULD TELL MY SON IN PERSON HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM,WHO AM I ,A MOTHER WHO'S HEART IS BROKEN INTO A MILLION PIECES,WHO AM I,A CONFUSED MOTHER,SAD,ANGRY,TRYING TO FIND MY WAY!!MOM'S THIS IS THE HARDEST THING ANY PARENT CAN ENDURE,LORD I WISH I CAN JUST TALK TO TONY,EVERY TIME I GO TO TONY'S WEB-SITES I CRY SO MUCH,AS A MOTHER I NEVER THOUGHT I FIND MY SELF DOING THIS,TALKING TO MY COMPUTER,MOM'S THIS IS TRULY A BATTLE FOR ALL OF US,I LOVE YOU,TONY'S-MOM,MICHELLE! |
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Michele (Raymund Mom)
IP: 24.207.175.10 Nov 29th, 2007 - 6:59 PM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
Michelle, i understand what you are saying you are in my prayers and i cry often about my son he was murdered Sept.25,2007 and i am still in denial because i know he will walk through that door and say hey im home but so far that has not happened, I am not having a good day today because all i do is think about Raymund and i will be so glad when the holidays come and go because they are so sad to me. |
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TERRY{CEDRIC'S}MOM
IP: 69.153.221.50 Nov 29th, 2007 - 7:03 PM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
MICHELLE I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL I TO AN A CONFUSED MOTHER,SAD,ANGRY AND TO BE REAL I'M SO CONFUSED ABOUT DEATH I AM 38 YEARS OLD AND ONLY HAD 3 CLOSE PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY A LOT OF MY MOTHERS FAMILY PASSED BEFORE I WAS BORN. THE FRIST PERSON THAT PASSED WAS MY GRANDMOTHER SHE PASSED 2 MOUNTHS AFTER MY SON WAS BORN AND I TOOK THAT VERY HARD AND GOT VERY SICK THAT WAS ALMOST 21 YEARS AGO NOONE IN MY FAMILY HAS PASSED IN ALL THEM YEARS UNTIL NOW IN LESS THEN A YEAR I HAVE LOST MY MOTHER, MY SON AND THEN A GRANDBABY. SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL I AM TRYING TO GET ME SOME HELP I ONLY GO OUT SIDE ONCE A MOUTH AND I FEEL LIKE I'M VERY OLD AND FAT! I HOPE WE ALL GET HELP BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE I'M SAD,LONEY AND FEEL LIKE THE ONLY PERSON WHO REALLY REALLY LOVED AND RESPECT ME IS GONE. HOW SAD IS THAT? I WILL PRAY FOR ALL OF US . I JUST KNOW GOD WILL HELP US AND ALSO THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE FOR ME AND THINK YOU AND THE OTHER MOMS FOR GOING ON MY SON'S PAGE I KNOW I DON'T ALWAYS DO THE SAME BUT IT'S JUST SO HARD FOR ME SOMETIME IT HURTS ME TO SEE MY SON AND ALL OF THE OTHER ANGELS BUT I WILL GET IT TOGATHER AND START TO GO AND SING ALL OF THERE PAGES BECAUSE I LOVE THEM AND I LOVE YOU AND ALL THE OTHER MOMS AND ALWAYS WILL GOD BLESS YOU MY SISTER I'M SENDING YOU A HUGE.....AND A LOT OF LOVE .TERRY{CEDRIC'S}MOM |
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TERRY{CEDRIC'S}MOM
IP: 69.153.221.50 Nov 29th, 2007 - 7:56 PM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
Hello Michele (Raymund Mom) I'M so sorry for the lost of your angel and my prayers are with you . I TO FEEL the same way you do. I think most of us here feel that way I sometime feel like I will open my eyes and everything will be ok and I will hear my son say I love you mama you know your my queen he was so sweet to me and we always made eachother smile.I miss him and can't believe someone murder my baby my only son my heart my everything. you and all the other moms are in my prayers, I'm sending you a big huge love your sister mom Terry{Cedric's}MOM |
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Bette
IP: 216.237.180.2 Nov 30th, 2007 - 10:01 AM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
I hear you I feel the same way, can't even think about shopping but I got to get my presents for my family. Just some I told them I'm not doing anything big, tht's just the what I feel. I'm lost lonly and sad, what can I feel joyful about at christmas??? I'm in too much pain right now. |
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joann hubert mom
IP: 69.31.155.253 Nov 30th, 2007 - 9:38 PM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
yes.i to know just how you feel my son i long to see him all in the same month. my aunt die.the next week my precious son was murdered. the next week my grand mother house collapes with an uncle still in side.talk about .luck i just would like to wake up soon.god will see us thru love joann |
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Darien Russell
IP: 4.88.118.236 Dec 2nd, 2007 - 8:42 AM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
I know how you feel . I am trying to figure out who I am too. I am not the same person I was ans i don't know who I am now. Keara was murdered a year and a half ago and all i know how to do is take it a day or even a minute at a time. There are some questions that seem too big to answer and all I can do is hope that I will be able to survive this and find my new self. It is so so hard though. I don't think there is a pain that could possible be worse than this. Most of the time I just want to stay in bed and hibernate but unfortunately ther are things I have to do to try to make ends meet even though a lot of the time I don't care. Kear'as murder was a domestic violence homicide and I am doing some speaking in hopes of saving someone else even though I couldn't save her. That is the only thing that seems to help at least in the moment. I really feel for you and I feel all the same things you do. I feel so isolated even though there are people all around. thsy are living normal lives and mine is a nightmare. I love you |
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alee/josh bunton's\ mom
IP: 65.104.144.11 Dec 6th, 2007 - 2:41 AM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
It's funny cause i asked myself that question everyday and i still can't accept am a mother whose child was murder,How do you come to terms with that.I'm label as a over emotional mother whose angery,bitter,confused,scared and so **** alone.I get so mad that the people aroung mejust go on like nothing has happen.Somedays i feel like out of sight out of mind cause how can i explain to them how am feeling when they take off running when i come into a room so i just stay at home. |
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Michele (Raymund Mom)
IP: 24.207.175.10 Dec 12th, 2007 - 5:29 AM |
Re: "WHO AM i'
i feel like a mother of a murdered son and when people look at me they see me that way,,but that is okay cause i will always love my son,,I will see him when it is time for me to go home,,I just tell my self that my son has changed his address ..I wish the holidays would hurry up and leave they are so depressing..I would give anything to tell my son i love him I tell him all during the day and night..I just miss him so much ...I feel like i am all alone without him Raymund was my right hand He was there for me and i was there for him,,this just seems so crazy..I am trying to make it but it takes all the strength i have to get out of bed..I keep all the moms in my prayers we will make it...Hugs and kisses to all..xoxo |
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