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remember me
 IP: 71.95.9.81 Oct 9, 07 - 4:33 PM |
mark
My son, Mark was shot and bled to death. The shooter is the stepchild of a close relative. That family treats me like I harmed their child. I never have although in my fantasies....Mark was/is a fabulous young man, he died at 21. I miss him so much! How in the world am I going to finish up my time on earth without becoming a person filled with hatred for that family? I so want to be reunited with my son upon my death. How does one be good when one wants to be bad? |
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joann hubert mom
IP: 69.31.155.253 Oct 9th, 2007 - 6:39 PM |
Re: mark
you have to give it 2 god he will work it out.my son was murdered in july 27 2007 i forgive his killer sight un seen some people say thay cannot forgive them.you have 2 it;s what god will in time you will find peace that pass all understanding. i will pray for you joann hubert iv mom. |
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remember me
IP: 71.95.9.81 Oct 9th, 2007 - 8:01 PM |
Re: mark
thank you for your input, I appreciate it more than you can know. However I feel hate such as I have never known before. How is it that a person can murder in this case for revenge for a crime never commited? The shooter was so twaked on drugs that he developed a story in his mind that was so far from reality. How is it that a family can jump into such a fantasy and go with it? My child was murdered in revenge for planting "spy cameras" in his walls, causing helicopers to "follow him around" and stealing his identity. We did none of those things to him or anybody else. These people were my close relatives, I had no idea there were such problems. Why didn't they say something? I absolutely divorce myself from them. I am ashamed to have been born into such a dirty family. |
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michelle brown
IP: 70.134.204.89 Oct 9th, 2007 - 8:17 PM |
Re: mark
HELLO I AM TONY'S MOM,I CAN RELATE,MY FAMILY,WELL TONY'S DAD AND MY SISTER IS HOLDING BACK INFO,RIGHT NOW ABOUT MY BABY'S MURDER,TONY BODY WAS FOUND 2FEET FROM HIS DAD PATIO DOOR IN A WOODEN AREA,AND ON TOP OF THAT HIS BODY WAS FOUND LAST YEAR ON FATHER'S DAY ON A SUNDAY AND HIS FATHER NEVER WENT OUTSIDE TO SEE IF THAT WAS HIS SON,MY SISTER TOLD ME EVERY THING THAT HAS HAPPEN IS MY FAULT,SO HELL WITH FAMILY,I UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN,ANGRY,SAD,MAD,SEEM'S TO BE MY LIFE NOW,MY SON MURDERER LAUGH IN MY FACE LAST WEEK,I KNOW I HAVE TO FORGIVE BUT GOD HAS TO REALLY DEAL WITH MY HEART,PRAY,THAT'S WHAT I DO,IT'S NOT FARE,I FEEL THE PAIN FOR YOU,BUT PLEASE KNOW I AM PRAYING FOR YOU AND ALL THE MOM'S!!LOVE-MICHELLE!! |
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deb (dwaynesmum)
IP: 211.27.78.7 Oct 9th, 2007 - 11:07 PM |
Re: mark
my son was murdered on 28th may 2007 and i will never ever forgive that dirtbag,he chose to play god and take my sons life away,NO i cannot and will not ever forgive him,the hate i have for him is so strong that i would kill him dead if i was ever given the chance,i feel your pain and know where your coming from,being family makes it worse,i could never ever speak too or see them again.god bless u and know we are all here for u,even though i'm from australia all you mums are saving my life,love to u all xxxxx |
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Kasi's Mama
IP: 151.213.152.78 Oct 10th, 2007 - 4:52 PM |
Re: mark
I was so filled with rage & hate. I lived to kill the woman who I knew (although she wasn't charged for 19 YEARS) anyway, I stayed alive (didn't kill myself) so that I could hunt her down and kill her. I can admit that now, I can also tell you that I was furious with God, how dare he take my child! Then I was afraid for feeling that way. HOWEVER, I can say that as time went by I began to change, I could hold it together during the day but at night nighmares would haunt me. They continued every night for four years. Then they became less frequent but continued on for SEVENTEEN years. After 17 years of being filled with this secret rage, I finally was able to give it to the Lord, really give it to him. I ask him to forgive me in my unforgiveness , to take the hate, the rage, all of it. I ask him to take it from me and give me peace. And you know what he not only heard me, he gave me peace! After 17 years the dreams stopped and I could finally rest. That was 2 years ago. I have lived for the Lord since that time. And I am happy to say that on May 23, 2007 after 19 years my daughters murderer was charged in the case. She will now die in prison, but you know what, it doesn't matter to me what happens to her. She is of no importance in my life, her actions ruled my behavior, my thoughts, my dreams for far to long. She has no hold on me anymore. I have peace and it didn't come from our "justice" system. It came from the Lord Jesus. I pray that it doesn't take you 17 years to turn to him. I understand you pain and the hate that you have for the murderer. God bless and keep you, I know he understands your pain too. |
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