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Yvonne Sheppard (Joshie Underwood's mom)
 IP: 71.203.250.255 Nov 27, 06 - 6:35 PM |
ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Hi moms, As far as the date goes, it was one year yesterday that my son was killed. It actually was Friday night, the night after Thanksgiving. It has been hell for days here,,,"normal" grief,,,and dealing with my middle son, who was with Joshua when he was shot,(jeremy was shot also,,grazing wound)I am ready to run away. I thought I was strong, but I am so **** tired I cannot stand up straight. Maybe tomorrow will give me my 3,000th wind. Just when I think I cannot take anymore, or cope anymore,,the energy seems to come from somewhere. (I am also raising Joshua's daughter, age four now) Thank you all for listening, I hope you find peace today, Yvonne Sheppard (Joshua Underwood's Vonnie) |
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Randi-Mark's Mom
IP: 75.2.164.3 Nov 27th, 2006 - 7:54 PM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Dear Yvonne, I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. I know what you mean when you say you think you're strong and then too tired to even stand up. After you get your 3,000th wind though, you will get your 3,001 wind. You will continue to get these winds to keep Joshua's memory alive and to raise his beautiful little girl. I wish I was close by to talk to you in person. I myself, am fast approaching 3 years without Mark. I don't know how I do it or anyone of us do it, we just do. Yvonne, just take it one day at a time and always know that Joshua will be alive in your heart forever. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs to you,Randi |
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Kay Crawford MOMS of Joshua delaney
IP: 70.33.51.131 Nov 27th, 2006 - 11:52 PM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Yvonne, I know what I felt when I hit the one year mark of my Joshua's first year angel anniversary. I couldn't believe that it had been a year since I heard his contagious laughter, or seen is smiling face or felt his kiss on my cheek, or even him coming in the house and picking me up saying'Mom you are so small to me now, I used to think you were a giant.' I am only 5' 3" tall and when he left this earth he was 5' 11" tall and thick to boot. I am so sorry you have had to join all us other moms on this site. I can only tell you that I don't think there will ever be a day when I don't think of my Josh, just some days I remember only pleasant memories of having my Joshie in my life and loving him till death. Hugs Kay PS If he knew I told anyone I called him Joshie he would probably be so mad. But he used to smile when it was only me and him and I called him that. |
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Karen Wes's mom
IP: 12.72.168.136 Nov 28th, 2006 - 1:58 AM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Yvonne, I say it feels like yesterday a lifetime ago. The angle date of our children will slowly fly by each year. Sometimes it seems like the days inbetween painfully drag on. 2 years 4 months ago Wes was murdered. Someone said the pain never goes away, you just get use to it. Knowing that made me feel better. I use to have a book titled "I feel much better now that I've given up hope". It really does feel a little better. Be proud that you made it through the day! It really is an accomplishment that you should feel good about! Karen Wes's mom |
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Michelle Simon
IP: 65.196.101.100 Nov 28th, 2006 - 8:33 AM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Yvonne, I am praying for your strength and comfort especially when you are raising Joshie's child. I thought I was strong too, but those moments of grief comes regardless of of the passage of time. I am told that the time between the extremely painful moments gets longer, but have yet to experience that. Give your grandaughter a kiss from us MOMS. |
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Lorre
IP: 207.200.116.70 Nov 28th, 2006 - 11:25 AM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Dear Yvonne, I remember when you came to us after Josh was stolen from you...it is so heartbreaking when another MOM joins, all you want to do is wrap her in as much love as you can. The physical pain of not having your child with you is so hard in the beginning. I remember it well. Now, further into this journey, I do feel as though my lovely family live in and around me. It's hard to explain, but I can be alone yet feel a presence. Or I can hear their comments to things in my mind. This doesn't happen all of the time but enough of it to know that only the location of their essence has shifted. I pray for you and your son and Chloe to feel Joshua as I am sure he is still with you all of the time. Love never dies. Ever. May time be kind to you during these difficult anniversaries. Sending hugs and love, Lorre |
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Eric\\\'s Ma Onna
IP: 207.200.116.70 Nov 28th, 2006 - 11:46 PM |
Re: ONE YEAR YESTERDAY
Karen you are so right.... "yesterday a lifetime ago" That is just what it is. Yvonne, I am thinking about you and Joshua. We all know the tired feeling that you are going through. I am so sorry. Please give your grandbaby a hug from me. Love to all my sista MOMS, Eric's Ma Onna |
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